Thursday, September 1, 2011
Depression setting in.
Im not the kind of person who gets depressed. I get sad and get over it and try to move on i always thought it was some made up condition. But i feel lately that my spirit is getting crushed. That maybe i am just not good enough and cant meet anyone standards. i don't know maybe i am week minded. but for the past few days i just cant shake this feeling. I work hard and do the best that I can everyday. maybe i don't always make it to class on time and maybe the lack of food in my day keeps me from focusing 100%. but I'm broke what can i do i rummage up the most money i can find to get some gas so I can make it to school and back which leaves me no money to buy food in the day. I don't like asking my parents for money because I feel like I'm to old for that. so I do my best. maybe I make up to many excuses. but yesterday was just awful on my self esteem and yesterday the lovebird I've had since i was 8 died. I helped take care of this bird from the day it was born. I received his parents as babies on my 5th birthday which was lion king themed and named them Mufasa and Siarabi ( Simba's parents). His original name was Zazu but as i got older my dad slowly changed it to Fransisco. I know he was a bird and all but I feel like I've lost a member of my family and a link to my childhood.